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REGRETS.
Posted Tuesday, 28 October 2014 // 7:33 pm
6 months ago, you asked me why am I always so cheerful and happy?6 months now, you decided to take away some of it.... I don't really know how it ended up this way, but I would really like to thank you for coming into my life. You reminded me to never get too close to someone and people won't fight for you, you taught me that not everyone is going to accept all your flaws and people are self-centered. I pushed people away for you, because of you, I do things with you I don't do with others because I thought will be different. You chose to prove me wrong. Remember how you used to say you were more afraid of me getting sick of you instead of the other way round? Remember how you were so confident we'll still be so close in the future? Do you remember? Look at what happened? 6 months of everything takes a day to become nothing, you practically just cut me off. I don't know how you do it, but you did it. I did suffered quite a big blow from my last relationship, it took me quite long to come back up again, though I got back what I was before, I was never same again. I just need you to understand that I have my issues, I need you to understand and find a solution for it. I need you to compromise and help me..... Maybe there's a misunderstanding, I'm not clingy, I just hate to be left hanging, waiting for the reply I expected. Because when I was left hanging, things ended badly and I was scared. I am scared of losing people, I am scared of people taking away a piece of me and never returning any of it. Did all of it mean nothing to you? 6 months worth of memory and friendship, just one message and it worth nothing now. I might sound ridiculous to you right now because we were nothing. But every friendship in my life is important. Losing any of it will make me very upset. I just didn't expect this from you. Maybe you were sick of it since long ago, just waiting for the time to come to make a clean break. Maybe you were really tired of me already. Maybe you met someone new, someone better than who I am and worth more than what I worth. It will take quite some time for me to accept the fact that you cut me off just like that, like I meant nothing. But it's okay, I'll find back the pieces of radiance I lost because of you. Thank you for disappointing me and hurting me like this when you already know I'm not so strong and I'm scared. It taught me to not trust people so easily. Remember, we are like this now is because you gave up on this friendship. And, I hope to never see you ever again, not in school, not in camp, not in malls, not anywhere. Since you decided to go, I hope you vanish completely from my life. Now, YOU fully understand why I hate making friends, because 7 out of the 10 friends I make, they are a waste of my time and emotions. Sad to say, you're one of them, wasted 6 months of my time and emotions. "Maybe it is just me. Like it's my problem....." "Someday, someone will find you and accept all your mistakes and teach you what no one else has ever taught you and you will never have to be alone. They will make your problems their problems and they will find your issues insecurely beautiful." |
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